I have let fear control a lot of what I have done and not done in my life.
I have let fear delay things that I wanted to do...
It is extremely limiting when you let fear control your life....
I had a fear of living too far away from my family.
I ended up not going to the college that I wanted to go to.
I had a fear that I wasn't capable of getting my degree...
I am graduating next month with my Bachelor's but could have been done with it 2 years ago
I have really let fear take hold of me in too many situations and it has crept back up in light of this new decision I have to make.
I was offered a marketing internship at a company I really wanted to work for.
After telling my employer about this opportunity they told me that we would have to part ways because they needed someone full time.
I have worked here for over 3 years and make pretty dang good money for being a receptionist.
I am absolutely terrified to leave
Why?
Because I don't know if I can find another job that will pay me enough to cover my bills and be flexible enough to work around my internship.
I'm am beyond scared.
Change scares the ship out of me.
Have you seen that new K-mart commercial? "I shipped my pants!" It is hilarious!
Change can be the most rewarding thing ever, so why is it so incredibly scary for me?
It's the unknown.
I don't know what is going to happen.
I don't know where I will be getting my income
I don't know if this internship will turn into a full-time position
I will be giving up A LOT of free time. ( I value the shit out of that!)
My whole professional world is going to change just to take this internship.
I really REALLY want to do this internship though...
This could be a opportunity of a lifetime.
This could give me some incredible experience that will look awesome on my resume.
So... Am I going to let fear take over this time?
No... right after I cry a little because I am so scared
I am going to take this opportunity and I am going to do it with confidence.
I will succeed.
Everything that I encounter has always turned out just fine plus I have an amazing support system.
So here is to CHANGE, OPPORTUNITY, LIFE.....
I am going to tackle this and come out stronger than ever. Bring it ON!!
Until next time,
p.s. I can't get pictures to load today... ugh