So I was just sitting in my car at lunch, doing what, you ask? Eating food.
Chips and a sandwich. I swear I heard the people in my car (head) ask if I wanted a sandwich with my chips.... I ignored them and happily or guiltily ate them anyways. Whatevs.
So in February Mase and I did Beachbody's Ultimate Reset. This is a nutrition plan with supplements that you stick to for 21 days.
Hardest 21 days of my life....
Although it was hard as phuck, I got through it without any slip ups, but I give all the credit to Mason for that.
He was an absolute champ and kept me plugging along. I am happy that he was there to do this for me.
At the end of 21 days I was not only very happy but 10 lbs lighter! Woo!!! Mase lost about 18 lbs *insert jealous face here*
I felt great and so did Mason.
After we were finished we really did not know how to go back to eating 'normal' food.
We wanted to try to eat better than before but it didn't really happen that way.
I felt like I was completely addicted to sweets for like 2 weeks after... still kind of feel that way. So... our eating did not improve really at all after this reset, unfortunately.
I really had high hopes that it would improve. Complete fail.
I feel like I just want to eat everything and anything that is bad for me.
I have realized that I am a big emotional eater, which seems to be the case with many women.
BOO!!! (get over your issues already, dammit!)
So as I was stuffing my face in my car today I just felt like a total slob and wondered how I did not weigh 300 lbs by now.
I need to figure this shit out. It's pissing me off mostly because this type of food makes me feel tired and sluggish!
Ugh.....
I know I have total control of what I put in my mouth but actually... I don't feel like I have control.
I get angry when I am hungry and when something does not sound good I don't want to eat it and get even angrier. (psycho!)
I am also incredibly lazy so cooking doesn't happen as often as it should for me.
I know what to eat to feel better and how to cook that food but it all seems like SO much work that I am not willing to put in right now. Or ever.
Many people tell me to food prep each week and that sounds horrible too. I want to be lazy on Sunday not cook. (duh!)
I can't say ugh enough to all of this.
My point to this whole rant is.... I need to figure out what emotions I am letting drive my eating habits! Easier said than done tho...
Well I am just going to eat this and go to cycle class tonight with Sarah and my mom....
I have mad picture taking skills... The life of a workin' girl!
Until next time,
Don't eat anymore Reese's.... or Toblerones. *smacking lips*
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